Lily

i've got a new goal. i want to be a lady who goes well with lilies. i wanna be like a lily.

a lily can stand without depending on others and absolutely beautiful by herself. i wanna be like that.


ok this is why i thought so.
the other day, i realized that i had been going to a wrong way as a woman.
guys don't see me as a girl and don't treat me well. i didn't why but i do now.

i can't love a man if he doesn't love me. i mean i can only love a man who loves me. because... i'm scared. scared of being hurt by loving somebody more than he does to me. i don't think i can change this.

however, i had NOT made effort to get loved. i realized that that is why guys don't see me as a girl. i was like "ok, this is me, myself, and i. i'm not gonna change myself. so accept and love me." how selfish is that.

i want my ppl how i'm gonna change. you'll see ;) and hopefully the one will find me soon!!